My appointment went well this morning. My doctor was very impressed with how well I have responded to injectables. The drug makes you produce a lot of eggs/follicles, and then hopefully 3 or 4 will break off; that is when they give me the ovidrel to ovulate. I had 39 follicles, yes folks 39. 4 of them are over double the size of all the rest of them. My estridiol came back at 428, which is a little high. So they lowered my dosage to 75 ui instead of 100. I go back on Monday for more blood work and u/s
I am shocked at how less stressful this cycle is. I am not experiencing any side effects like I did with clomid and femara. I am tired and a little more emotional than normal, but other than that I can't complain. I expected it to be as bad as it was before. I think the other drugs make you depressed and you stew about things more, plus you don't feel good. But I do have a cold and sound like shit-does that count for anything?
Thursday, May 22, 2008
Wednesday, May 21, 2008
birthcontrol
Just a funny thought. I am reading this book A Few good eggs by Julie Vargo and Maureen Regan and they have a part in there on how in their 20's they spent all their money on trying to prevent pregnacy. So I decided to see how much I spent! YIKES, I have spent over $4200 on birth control. If I only knew what I knew now.
Tuesday, May 20, 2008
infertility's common thread
I read this blog off of a site:
http://stirrup-queens.blogspot.com/2006/09/history-of-infertilitys-common-thread.html
For those of you that need support please read this blog, it is very informative.
Pomegranates, a longstanding symbol of fertility, serve as a strong analogy to those suffering through infertility. Though each pomegranate skin is unique in colour and texture, the seeds inside are remarkably similar from fruit to fruit. Though our diagnosis is unique—endometriosis, low sperm count, luteal phase defect, or causes unknown—the emotions, those seeds on the inside, are the same from person to person. Infertility creates frustration, anger, depression, guilt, and loneliness. Compounding these emotions is the shame that drives people suffering from infertility to retreat into silence.
In addition, the seeds represent the multitude of ways one can build their family: natural conception, treatments, adoption, third-party reproduction, or even choosing to live child-free. The pomegranate thread holds a two-fold purpose: to identify and create community between those experiencing infertility as well as create a starting point for a conversation. Women pregnant through A.R.T., families created through adoption, or couples trying to conceive during infertility can wear the thread, identifying themselves to others in this silent community. At the same time, the string serves as a gateway to conversations about infertility when people inquire about its purpose. These conversations are imperative if we are ever to remove the social stigma attached to infertility.Tie on the thread because you’re not alone. Wear to make aware.Join us in starting this conversation about infertility by purchasing this pomegranate-coloured thread (#814 by DMC) at any craft, knitting, or variety store such as Walmart or Target. Tie it on your right wrist. Notice it on others.
On my sidebar you will see infertility's common thread. For those bloggers reading this, please feel free to copy this and add it to yours as well.
http://stirrup-queens.blogspot.com/2006/09/history-of-infertilitys-common-thread.html
For those of you that need support please read this blog, it is very informative.
Pomegranates, a longstanding symbol of fertility, serve as a strong analogy to those suffering through infertility. Though each pomegranate skin is unique in colour and texture, the seeds inside are remarkably similar from fruit to fruit. Though our diagnosis is unique—endometriosis, low sperm count, luteal phase defect, or causes unknown—the emotions, those seeds on the inside, are the same from person to person. Infertility creates frustration, anger, depression, guilt, and loneliness. Compounding these emotions is the shame that drives people suffering from infertility to retreat into silence.
In addition, the seeds represent the multitude of ways one can build their family: natural conception, treatments, adoption, third-party reproduction, or even choosing to live child-free. The pomegranate thread holds a two-fold purpose: to identify and create community between those experiencing infertility as well as create a starting point for a conversation. Women pregnant through A.R.T., families created through adoption, or couples trying to conceive during infertility can wear the thread, identifying themselves to others in this silent community. At the same time, the string serves as a gateway to conversations about infertility when people inquire about its purpose. These conversations are imperative if we are ever to remove the social stigma attached to infertility.Tie on the thread because you’re not alone. Wear to make aware.Join us in starting this conversation about infertility by purchasing this pomegranate-coloured thread (#814 by DMC) at any craft, knitting, or variety store such as Walmart or Target. Tie it on your right wrist. Notice it on others.
On my sidebar you will see infertility's common thread. For those bloggers reading this, please feel free to copy this and add it to yours as well.
Monday, May 19, 2008
1st shot down
Thought you might want to see some really cute pictures from our trip! The top one is Carter, he is 5 months and the best baby! The bottom one is myself, Payton, 3 and Justin.
We started injectables today! We went to the doctor and had a u/s and they tested my estrogen levels. The u/s showed little eggs-like always, so that was good for us to start today. My estrogen had to come back under 50, I was at 32. So it was a go! We go back on Thursday for an u/s and blood work.
I have Gonal F Vials. One nice thing is my doctor did give it to us free! Hopefully this will work and we won't need anymore. I have to mix a shot of solution with a powder in a vial. After it is mixed, I get a syringe and pull back 100 units, and give myself a shot in the stomach. I am very positive about this round. Our trip was a great break, much was needed. But now we are refreshed and ready to get knocked up!! My aunt gave me a large Buddha, it is a big rock looking thing that goes in a garden. It's approximately 3 feet tall. Her and my cousins have decided it is a fertility god. The best thing is it worked for both of her daughters, and it is our turn now. It better work or I want my money back!
Saturday, May 17, 2008
game on
If you read my previous post, you have seen that my travel plans have been postponed. I have not gotten a confirmed date on when I will start traveling. So far all I know is I have to be able to commit to being gone July 5-October week 3. Now, I won't necessarily be gone for the whole duration, but that is the window. In the mean time I had to contact my RE to postpone my start date. After some conversation we have decided that we are going to go ahead and start injectables this month. Normally I would go to the doctor on day 3 of my cycle. If I were to do that I would go to the doctor some time in the later part of this month, due to the fact AF decided to visit me while I was on vacation. But because I didn't produce any eggs with the last treatment, my doctor doesn't think that I am producing anything on my own. On Monday I have to go to the doctor for a ultrasound. If all in clear I will start injectables on Monday night. From my understanding I will be doing Gonal-F, which is the injectable drug. It is given in two forms, a pen that is given in the stomach or a shot in the ass. I am hoping that I will get the pen, due to the fact I can give myself the shots myself. Other wise I think my husband will get a lot of kicks giving me a shot in the ass everynight.
On some of the blogs I have read, people get really bloated, plus all the other side effects. You know there is nothing better than being so bloated you almost look pregnant, but yet can't get pregnant.
Funny story: I have this girl who works for me. She is new, very young, very different. Anyway, we were closing together the other night and she was asking me some questions like "how long you been married?" and "do you want kids?" So I told her that I have been married one year and that we weren't in a hurry to have kids, which obviously is a total lie-but there are only a few people close to me that know about all the fertility. She looked at me and says (no lie) "aren't you getting a little old to have kids!" What the F#$%! Do I look like I am freaken old! I know I am almost 30, but last I checked that is definitly still child bearing age. I didn't know what to do, I kind of panicked. I don't know what planet she came off of!
On some of the blogs I have read, people get really bloated, plus all the other side effects. You know there is nothing better than being so bloated you almost look pregnant, but yet can't get pregnant.
Funny story: I have this girl who works for me. She is new, very young, very different. Anyway, we were closing together the other night and she was asking me some questions like "how long you been married?" and "do you want kids?" So I told her that I have been married one year and that we weren't in a hurry to have kids, which obviously is a total lie-but there are only a few people close to me that know about all the fertility. She looked at me and says (no lie) "aren't you getting a little old to have kids!" What the F#$%! Do I look like I am freaken old! I know I am almost 30, but last I checked that is definitly still child bearing age. I didn't know what to do, I kind of panicked. I don't know what planet she came off of!
Wednesday, May 14, 2008
were home
We are home, I feel like I have been gone for a month! So obviously we had a great vacation! We went to Disneyworld with my Aunt Darlene and Uncle Steve, their daughter Missy and her husband Jim. As well as their two kids Payton 3,and Carter 5 months. It was hot and humid the whole week, which I loved! I would say it was 90 everyday with about 90% humidity. We tried to stay out of the parks in the afternoons because it was just to hot. With the heat and the excitement of the parks the kids did really well. I am sure they were a little overwhelmed but you really wouldn't have known it.
On May 10, it was Justin's birthday. Out of the 3 three birthdays he has had since we have known each other, we have been at Disney for 2 of them. Nothing better than being at the "happiest place on earth." We really didn't do anything special. We went to dinner and miniature golfing that night. We had a good time! As soon as I upload my pictures I will put some up for your viewing pleasure.
On Monday of our vacation I received a call from work regarding my New York trip. Apparently, it has been postponed! And they have not reset a date for me to leave. It sucks! Rumor has it I may not be leaving until July, which would put us into the end of September, early October before we start treatment. It is frustrating, I just want a break. Every time we turn around there is more bad news or another obstacle. It shouldn't be this hard! I know there are people out there worse off than we are, but it doesn't make it any easier. And I can honestly say that after our trip, I want kids even more!! So hopefully I will hear back from work later this week or early next week. I will keep you all posted as soon as I hear something.
Until then I am back in reality. My cousin Ryan and Tara are coming down on Friday for the night. I am going home on Saturday night after work for Payton' s birthday-the big 3! Then on Sunday I have my cousin Lindsy's bridal shower. And then I have to work that night!! So we will be very busy for the next few days. The more I think about it, it is probably better that we say busy, let time for us to think!
On May 10, it was Justin's birthday. Out of the 3 three birthdays he has had since we have known each other, we have been at Disney for 2 of them. Nothing better than being at the "happiest place on earth." We really didn't do anything special. We went to dinner and miniature golfing that night. We had a good time! As soon as I upload my pictures I will put some up for your viewing pleasure.
On Monday of our vacation I received a call from work regarding my New York trip. Apparently, it has been postponed! And they have not reset a date for me to leave. It sucks! Rumor has it I may not be leaving until July, which would put us into the end of September, early October before we start treatment. It is frustrating, I just want a break. Every time we turn around there is more bad news or another obstacle. It shouldn't be this hard! I know there are people out there worse off than we are, but it doesn't make it any easier. And I can honestly say that after our trip, I want kids even more!! So hopefully I will hear back from work later this week or early next week. I will keep you all posted as soon as I hear something.
Until then I am back in reality. My cousin Ryan and Tara are coming down on Friday for the night. I am going home on Saturday night after work for Payton' s birthday-the big 3! Then on Sunday I have my cousin Lindsy's bridal shower. And then I have to work that night!! So we will be very busy for the next few days. The more I think about it, it is probably better that we say busy, let time for us to think!
Thursday, May 1, 2008
no help
We got denied for the assistance, because we make to much money!! We are supposed to be able to "afford" it with the money we make! Ha, ha that was the most hilarious thing I have ever heard. So we leave for Florida in 2 days, can' t wait, I need it!!
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