Dear Tooth fairy,
I just want to personally thank you for being kind this first go round. I know most people don't show much gratitude to you, unless they are asking for money, but I don't want any. Just want to thank you. And if you want to grant us this much peace the next time, we wouldn't have any objections. Actually maybe we should pay you. How much do you charge for painless teething.....I may be willing to pay? The child has been drooling since he was 3 months, but no crying, ear infections, diarrhea, night crying-nothing that anyone has warned us about. So we have one, on the bottom left. Can the next one be just as painless?
Many thanks again,
Camden's mommy
Sunday, September 27, 2009
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
lost, but now found
I know I have been on a blogging hiatus, but I didn't know whether to continue this blog or stop blogging. I have been a bit torn with continuing due to numerous reasons. One-I have the one thing this blog was about, by baby boy. Two-this was my way to talk to others and to share my feeling about things that I was going through. It was private, and only a few people knew about it besides my fertility family (who I cherish more than anything.) Now, it is extremely public. I am not mad about others finding out about it, I just feel that somethings are better off not being common knowledge to entire world. Yes, I know I blog-and it is on the web, but there is a difference between that and every single acquaintance and friend knowing my deepest darkest feelings and emotions. Three-time-I just don't have as much time as I used to. So I have decided that I will keep it going. I will talk about my life, my son, and when it comes time-infertility. At that time, I will most likely make this blog private or create a private one. I want to keep my IF family in the loop, because they can relate, and they helped me through it the first time, I may need then to get me through it again. I value those friendships. So here we go......
Little man is getting big, he is now about 5 1/2 months, and the joy of my life. We have had a eventful summer. Camden has been to the zoo, Brewer games, Badger game, traveled all over Wisconsin, the list goes on and on. I went back to work after 12 wks, it was a very hard time for me. I always thought I would love motherhood, but I loved it even more than I thought. So I struggled for a few weeks. We found a awesome private daycare provider that gives us some flexibility. I love her, and Camden does so well with her.
A few weeks after being back to work, Camden was baptised. He cried through the entire thing until they poured water on his head, then he smiled. Now, don't most baby's hang out until they pour water over their head, then they cry. Yeah, not my baby!! He had his first haircut about the same week. YUP, a haircut. The crown of his head was about 4 1/2 inches long and stuck straight up, it had to go!! And he had a rat tail that went half way down his back. He looked like a 80's baby. Cute, but much cuter after the haircut.
We have been pretty much in line with milestones. He rolls all over the floor. He started rolling both ways at about 4 months. He has now figured out he can get places by rolling. He is a maniac in his exersaucer and jumper. In his exersaucer the grabs a hold of a toy and leans back and can pull the toy completely out of the exersaucer. Literally breaks it!! He is so incredibly strong!! We actually has to raise the height on both toys because he jumps and is so tall. He is eating cereal and oatmeal. He loves it! He gets rice cereal at night and Oatmeal in the morning. We mixed some squash in the cereal the last two nights. I haven't figured out what he really thinks. The first two bites he gags, then he is fine.
We have been a pretty happy baby for the most part. We have had two colds-nothing to serious-runny nose, little cough. We also had a 4 day flu a couple of weeks ago which was HELL! He had the diarrhea for 5 or 6 days. And he vomited the first day and the last day. I am so glad that is over!! No teeth yet, but they have to be close. This child can't drool anymore than he already does!! He is a facet!!
I will leave you with some pictures and continue to update!!!
Camden's first badger game
walking in the grass
first time swimming
Little man is getting big, he is now about 5 1/2 months, and the joy of my life. We have had a eventful summer. Camden has been to the zoo, Brewer games, Badger game, traveled all over Wisconsin, the list goes on and on. I went back to work after 12 wks, it was a very hard time for me. I always thought I would love motherhood, but I loved it even more than I thought. So I struggled for a few weeks. We found a awesome private daycare provider that gives us some flexibility. I love her, and Camden does so well with her.
A few weeks after being back to work, Camden was baptised. He cried through the entire thing until they poured water on his head, then he smiled. Now, don't most baby's hang out until they pour water over their head, then they cry. Yeah, not my baby!! He had his first haircut about the same week. YUP, a haircut. The crown of his head was about 4 1/2 inches long and stuck straight up, it had to go!! And he had a rat tail that went half way down his back. He looked like a 80's baby. Cute, but much cuter after the haircut.
We have been pretty much in line with milestones. He rolls all over the floor. He started rolling both ways at about 4 months. He has now figured out he can get places by rolling. He is a maniac in his exersaucer and jumper. In his exersaucer the grabs a hold of a toy and leans back and can pull the toy completely out of the exersaucer. Literally breaks it!! He is so incredibly strong!! We actually has to raise the height on both toys because he jumps and is so tall. He is eating cereal and oatmeal. He loves it! He gets rice cereal at night and Oatmeal in the morning. We mixed some squash in the cereal the last two nights. I haven't figured out what he really thinks. The first two bites he gags, then he is fine.
We have been a pretty happy baby for the most part. We have had two colds-nothing to serious-runny nose, little cough. We also had a 4 day flu a couple of weeks ago which was HELL! He had the diarrhea for 5 or 6 days. And he vomited the first day and the last day. I am so glad that is over!! No teeth yet, but they have to be close. This child can't drool anymore than he already does!! He is a facet!!
I will leave you with some pictures and continue to update!!!
Camden's first badger game
walking in the grass
first time swimmingMonday, June 8, 2009
Happy two months
What a day! I am exhausted. We had really loud storms here last night. And it didn't help that it lightninged like crazy either. I was awake most of the storms, from 1-3am, assuming the storms would wake Camden up. But, he decided to sleep through them and wake up at 3:30 for a bottle. And we had to be up early and at our first appt by 9am, and the appts continued all day until 4 pm. Thank god they are over!!
What a big boy!! Camden is officially 2 months today, he is growing up so fast!! Today was his 2 month check up. He is 12lbs, 9 0z--73%, he was 10lbs and 50% 3 wks ago, and he is 23.75"--80%! Holy man, he is growing like a weed. He also received his shots today. I had to step out right before he the shots because I had a dr. appt on a different floor. Hubby said he did okay. He got the first one and his face got bright red and then the furry came. He screamed his head off. Justin doesn't even think he knew he got two more shots because he was still in shock and pissed off from the first one. I told Camden that I was glad that he say his daddy's face as he got those shots, not mine--jk! Actually, I am glad Justin was there, because I don't think I could have helped hold him down and watched him scream like that. He has been pretty good tonight, but definitely not himself. He is really happy, then really sleepy, and hungry. We will how the night goes....he may be up a few times. Only time will tell...
We also found a daycare--yeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaaa!! It is a bitter sweet feeling. I am glad and a little at ease that we found someone, but don't want to think about going back to work! I am very glad that my inlaws are coming the first week I go back to work, and then my mom is coming the next week.
Holy man, I didn't realize it was 11pm. This girl needs to go to bed!! I will be up in a few hrs, and I have a dr's appt in the am. I can't seem to shake this terrible headache that I have had for over a week. I am going to my 3rd appt for it in the AM, lets see if they find the source. I would be happy with a good pain pill to just get rid of it for a little while. Good night and sweet dreams.
What a big boy!! Camden is officially 2 months today, he is growing up so fast!! Today was his 2 month check up. He is 12lbs, 9 0z--73%, he was 10lbs and 50% 3 wks ago, and he is 23.75"--80%! Holy man, he is growing like a weed. He also received his shots today. I had to step out right before he the shots because I had a dr. appt on a different floor. Hubby said he did okay. He got the first one and his face got bright red and then the furry came. He screamed his head off. Justin doesn't even think he knew he got two more shots because he was still in shock and pissed off from the first one. I told Camden that I was glad that he say his daddy's face as he got those shots, not mine--jk! Actually, I am glad Justin was there, because I don't think I could have helped hold him down and watched him scream like that. He has been pretty good tonight, but definitely not himself. He is really happy, then really sleepy, and hungry. We will how the night goes....he may be up a few times. Only time will tell...
We also found a daycare--yeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaaa!! It is a bitter sweet feeling. I am glad and a little at ease that we found someone, but don't want to think about going back to work! I am very glad that my inlaws are coming the first week I go back to work, and then my mom is coming the next week.
Holy man, I didn't realize it was 11pm. This girl needs to go to bed!! I will be up in a few hrs, and I have a dr's appt in the am. I can't seem to shake this terrible headache that I have had for over a week. I am going to my 3rd appt for it in the AM, lets see if they find the source. I would be happy with a good pain pill to just get rid of it for a little while. Good night and sweet dreams.
Sunday, June 7, 2009
and the days go on....
Tomorrow my little boy is 2 months old!! I am so sad that he growing up so fast, but at the same time it is so fun to watch him change and do new things. He also has his 2 month check up tomorrow. I can't wait to see how much he has grown. I think he is well over 12 lbs, and I know he is really long. He is in 3-6 month sleepers. They are a little big through his chest and arms, but he NEEDS them for his length. My husband said it was time to go up to a bigger size earlier this week, when he could barely straighten his legs in his 0-3 month sleeper. It was kind of funny, but I felt bad at the same time. Now, I am also noticing that a lot of his one piece outfits no longer fit either, they are all to short. So yesterday and today, I drefted all of his 3-6 month clothes, although a lot of them won't fit him yet.
Camden is now officially on strictly formula. I quit pumping last week. It was a tough decision, but pumping was becoming a waste. I wasn't even getting a bottles work after pumping 3 times in a day. My last straw, was going 8 hrs, not feeling full and only getting a ounce in a half after pumping. He finished up everything I had frozen this week. I still feel guilty and wish I was still actually nursing, but what can a girl do? I would have to have him on formula by the time I went back to work, anyway. And that is in 3 wks. It is what it is. He is happy and healthy and that is all that really matters.
Tomorrow, we also are going back to the 2 places we are considering for daycare. One is a actual daycare, and the other is a at home day care. They both have pros and cons. But, I think I like the at home provider better. It is a lot farther away from our house then the other place but it is worth it. Oh, I can't believe I go back to work in 3 wks. Before I went on leave, 12 wks seemed like an eternity to be off. Boy, was I wrong, it is not long enough at all. I wish I lived in Norway, where you get paid to take the first year off. Wouldn't that be nice?!?!
Until tomorrow I leave you with a little cutie pie, named Camden!
Camden is now officially on strictly formula. I quit pumping last week. It was a tough decision, but pumping was becoming a waste. I wasn't even getting a bottles work after pumping 3 times in a day. My last straw, was going 8 hrs, not feeling full and only getting a ounce in a half after pumping. He finished up everything I had frozen this week. I still feel guilty and wish I was still actually nursing, but what can a girl do? I would have to have him on formula by the time I went back to work, anyway. And that is in 3 wks. It is what it is. He is happy and healthy and that is all that really matters.
Tomorrow, we also are going back to the 2 places we are considering for daycare. One is a actual daycare, and the other is a at home day care. They both have pros and cons. But, I think I like the at home provider better. It is a lot farther away from our house then the other place but it is worth it. Oh, I can't believe I go back to work in 3 wks. Before I went on leave, 12 wks seemed like an eternity to be off. Boy, was I wrong, it is not long enough at all. I wish I lived in Norway, where you get paid to take the first year off. Wouldn't that be nice?!?!
Until tomorrow I leave you with a little cutie pie, named Camden!
Thursday, May 28, 2009
power of prayer
I am sorry I haven't updated this week, and unfortunately I am not doing that right now. I am asking for some positive thoughts and prayers. My SIL, Jenna, has been in labor since Tuesday morning at 3 am. She is still in labor now, and yes it is 7:45 Thursday morning. When it
started on Tuesday, she was having contractions about 10 minutes apart. She had a doctors appt that morning at 8:30, where she was only 1 cm dilated and 60% effaced. She labored all day with contractions anywhere from 5-10 minutes apart. She went to bed and they picked up anywhere from 3-5 minutes. She stuck it out through the night and went in at 5 am to only find out she had made no progress. They did allow her to stay at the hospital instead of sending her home, so she could hopefully get some sleep. That didn't happen. They have had her walking and sitting in the tub all day. At 10 pm when I left the hospital, she was still only at 4 cm after 2 days of labor. I received a text this morning that she was finally at 8 cm. She finally took a epidural and they gave her pitocin to speed things up. (really, don't think you should sped things up 24 hrs ago?) She is sleeping as we speak. So, if you can give her some prayers, hugs, and support, I know she would greatly appreciate it. She has no idea how strong she really is, a little support would go a long way. We are all just praying for a healthy delivery!! But, I wouldn't be lying if we all just want this to be over soon for her sake. Thanks you for all of your support!
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Update,
Gracelyn Kate was born on Thursday May 28th, at 11:41 am.
She was 7lbs, 10 oz and 19 1/2 inches long
Mom and baby are doing well
Camden looks huge compared to her.....
started on Tuesday, she was having contractions about 10 minutes apart. She had a doctors appt that morning at 8:30, where she was only 1 cm dilated and 60% effaced. She labored all day with contractions anywhere from 5-10 minutes apart. She went to bed and they picked up anywhere from 3-5 minutes. She stuck it out through the night and went in at 5 am to only find out she had made no progress. They did allow her to stay at the hospital instead of sending her home, so she could hopefully get some sleep. That didn't happen. They have had her walking and sitting in the tub all day. At 10 pm when I left the hospital, she was still only at 4 cm after 2 days of labor. I received a text this morning that she was finally at 8 cm. She finally took a epidural and they gave her pitocin to speed things up. (really, don't think you should sped things up 24 hrs ago?) She is sleeping as we speak. So, if you can give her some prayers, hugs, and support, I know she would greatly appreciate it. She has no idea how strong she really is, a little support would go a long way. We are all just praying for a healthy delivery!! But, I wouldn't be lying if we all just want this to be over soon for her sake. Thanks you for all of your support!
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Update,
Gracelyn Kate was born on Thursday May 28th, at 11:41 am.
She was 7lbs, 10 oz and 19 1/2 inches long
Mom and baby are doing well
Camden looks huge compared to her.....
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
one day at a time.......
This is the crabby child I have had on my hands for the last 10 days or so. But, I think we have turned the corner. Hopefully I am not jinxing myself by saying that. It started 2 fridays ago, he was fussing from the time he got up to the time he went to bed. It was so unlike him. We decided to give him an extra ounce at his feedings, which seemed to be the trick for about 3 days, and then it started all over again. I could never put him down, and when I did he would cry until he would choke and gage. It was terribly heart breaking! It was making me cry. He wasn't constipated, but it seemed that he was having some gas issues. He would still be burping and hour after his bottle. I contacted the pediatrician and we decided to switch his formula, although I was a little hesitant because I didn't want to make it worse. Anyway, we did that last friday. We switched to a sensative mix, which is slightly broken down. I also decided to switch to a different bottle because he didn't seem to get a good seal around the nipple. He always seemed to be leaking and sucking in air, not to mention it would take 30-40 minutes for him to take 4-5oz. I now have my happy baby back!! He seems to be adjusting to both very well. I don't know what was the cure, but he takes a bottle in about 15-20 minutes and he isn't gassy from it. Not to mention that he still isn't spitting up very often, so it has been a win, win situation. The only thing that sucked was the bottles were expensive and the formula is a little more expensive. It ends up being a latte less a week in cost, so really it's not a big deal. Personally, I wouldn't blink a eye if it cost me a $100 a week, as long as my little man is happy, it is all worth it to me.
So back to what is new:
I had my 6 wk check up this week, I am completely healed up. We talked a little about Birth control, when we want to have another baby, fertility drugs. yikes-I don't think I was ready to switch my thinking to having another one yet, I am still enjoying my 6 WEEK OLD. Anyway she did suggest that I don't take anything that will alter my hormones due to my PSOS and irregular cycles as it is. So we are going that route. We also decided that we will start back on the metformin when Camden is 6 months old. It will take me 6-8 wks to build up my normal dose. At that point I will go back in for testing to see what is happening, well to see if I am ovulating on my own.
Other than that, the last week had been pretty uneventful because of crabby man. I was home for mothers day and my husbands birthday. It was a nice break. My wonderful mother took all of the night feedings while I was home. So I just had to change him, make his bottle, and pump. I then got to go to bed, it was amazing!! It sad on how those little things make you feel like a new woman. I needed it, now I am recharged. Other than that we have been hanging out at home a lot.
This mothers day was in some ways bitter sweet. I have a new persective of the holiday, and thank god every day for my son. But, I also remember how much it hurt last year when every other mother was celebrating the holiday, and I was still dreaming of what it would be like. I kept thinking about all the woman out there struggling with IF and how much their hearts ache on a daily bases. And now there is a day of celebrating something they are privately mourning. Yet, I wonder if someday I will have to endure that frustration and pain again.
It is sad that my maternity leave is half over. Camden is 6 wks old today, it definitly doesn't seem that long ago. It is also crazy how much he has changed. To most people he is still a little baby, and to me he is this little guy with such personality. He screams the minute he decided he is hungry, he hates to burp and screams until he does, then wants the bottle bac-- now. He greets me in the morning with big smiles. He is starting to find his voice. He will let out a loud shreek, and smile and look around to see where it came from. He is getting chubbier cheeks then he already has, I just want to kiss them all day. He loves to cuddle and snuggle-I just never want him to grow up.
Tuesday, May 5, 2009
4 wk tomorrow
where does the time go? I can't believe that it has been 4 wks tomorrow since I gave birth. YIKES!! Nor can I seem to find the time to get anything done: My house is a mess, I have never ending laundry, and every time I start something, Mr. Camden seems to need something. But I wouldn't change it for the world. So here is what is new in our lives:
Breast feeding: Love it and hate it all in the same breath. I love the bonding time with Camden, but I hate how much it hurts. I have had problems since he has come home from the hospital. My little piggy latched on like a champ. the first weekend he was so hungry and my milk wasn't in, and due to him eating every 2 hrs for at least an hour, he did some serious damage. Like, my nipp.les were cracked, scabbed, and bleeding. Now I am sure I am not the first or last one to experience that, but it hurt so bad for him to latch. I did stick it out, but it never got better because of the damage he did. So after talking to the lactation consultant she suggested that I take a week off and strictly pump to let them heal. That was last Sunday. They suggested that I do not feed him a bottle myself, well that was not possible due to the fact my husband works during the day. So I got him to finally take one from me (this was next to impossible-he looked at me like I was on crack.) Now, to go back to nursing I would have to start all over, and due to the fact I am pumping, for some reason my milk supply has gone down, so we have had to supplement 2 oz every feeding with formula. So I think nursing is behind us, I'm still going to continue to pump and mix with formula until I go back to work. And I really hate pumping, but I just can't let go of it. I envy those people that can nurse with no problems, I would have loved for it to have been that easy for me.
We have had company for almost everyday for the last 4 wks. I think today, and one or maybe two days last week, were the only days someone didn't stop by. It has been nice, but it is also nice to have a day where I don't need to shower and get ready. That probably sound disgusting, but getting ready always seems to be a production. I used to get up, shower, get dressed, eat breakfast, and make it to work all in an hour. Now, it takes me at least two by the time I pump, feed Camden, change few diapers and get him dresses. Boy, oh boy, my priorities have changed.
Hubby and I are going on our first date since the baby on Thursday. We are going to see Bil.ly Jo.el and El.ton Joh.n. I am so excited to see this show, but I am really nervous to leave for that long. I have left to run to the store or go pick up food, leaving him home with my hubby for an hour tops. And I have left on 2 shopping trips with my cousin, but we were gone not even 3 hrs. Thursdays show is almost 4 hrs long and hubby would like to go early and grab a bite to eat or get a drink. I know I need to go and enjoy, I just hope that I am not thinking about how my child is doing the whole time. Hubby called my mom to come and babysit a month before we even bought the tickets. So she is coming down for the night, so he will be in good hands.
We are heading to my parents house for the weekend. Sunday is Mothers day, but it is also hubby's birthday. So we are celebrating both. I will check in later this week and update any new and exciting events. I will leave you with a few pictures:
I love this picture, although my hubby may kill me for posting it. These are the two loves of my life. I put Camden down on my pillow and told hubby to keep him company while I went to grab a bottle. I was gone 3 minutes and returned to find both sleeping and Camden curled around his head. It was too cute!
Camden seems to be in love with his sea horse. He coos and talks to it for hours-seriously. This toy is awesome because it sings 5 songs before it turns off, glow worm not so much. And yes, his hair will not go down, so it sticks up unless it is wet.
Camden not know exactly what to make of tummy time, although he doesn't seem to mind it
Breast feeding: Love it and hate it all in the same breath. I love the bonding time with Camden, but I hate how much it hurts. I have had problems since he has come home from the hospital. My little piggy latched on like a champ. the first weekend he was so hungry and my milk wasn't in, and due to him eating every 2 hrs for at least an hour, he did some serious damage. Like, my nipp.les were cracked, scabbed, and bleeding. Now I am sure I am not the first or last one to experience that, but it hurt so bad for him to latch. I did stick it out, but it never got better because of the damage he did. So after talking to the lactation consultant she suggested that I take a week off and strictly pump to let them heal. That was last Sunday. They suggested that I do not feed him a bottle myself, well that was not possible due to the fact my husband works during the day. So I got him to finally take one from me (this was next to impossible-he looked at me like I was on crack.) Now, to go back to nursing I would have to start all over, and due to the fact I am pumping, for some reason my milk supply has gone down, so we have had to supplement 2 oz every feeding with formula. So I think nursing is behind us, I'm still going to continue to pump and mix with formula until I go back to work. And I really hate pumping, but I just can't let go of it. I envy those people that can nurse with no problems, I would have loved for it to have been that easy for me.
We have had company for almost everyday for the last 4 wks. I think today, and one or maybe two days last week, were the only days someone didn't stop by. It has been nice, but it is also nice to have a day where I don't need to shower and get ready. That probably sound disgusting, but getting ready always seems to be a production. I used to get up, shower, get dressed, eat breakfast, and make it to work all in an hour. Now, it takes me at least two by the time I pump, feed Camden, change few diapers and get him dresses. Boy, oh boy, my priorities have changed.
Hubby and I are going on our first date since the baby on Thursday. We are going to see Bil.ly Jo.el and El.ton Joh.n. I am so excited to see this show, but I am really nervous to leave for that long. I have left to run to the store or go pick up food, leaving him home with my hubby for an hour tops. And I have left on 2 shopping trips with my cousin, but we were gone not even 3 hrs. Thursdays show is almost 4 hrs long and hubby would like to go early and grab a bite to eat or get a drink. I know I need to go and enjoy, I just hope that I am not thinking about how my child is doing the whole time. Hubby called my mom to come and babysit a month before we even bought the tickets. So she is coming down for the night, so he will be in good hands.
We are heading to my parents house for the weekend. Sunday is Mothers day, but it is also hubby's birthday. So we are celebrating both. I will check in later this week and update any new and exciting events. I will leave you with a few pictures:
I love this picture, although my hubby may kill me for posting it. These are the two loves of my life. I put Camden down on my pillow and told hubby to keep him company while I went to grab a bottle. I was gone 3 minutes and returned to find both sleeping and Camden curled around his head. It was too cute!
Camden seems to be in love with his sea horse. He coos and talks to it for hours-seriously. This toy is awesome because it sings 5 songs before it turns off, glow worm not so much. And yes, his hair will not go down, so it sticks up unless it is wet.
Camden not know exactly what to make of tummy time, although he doesn't seem to mind it
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