12 wk appt

we had our 12 wk yesterday and got to hear the heart beat, it was pretty cool. It was around 160, which is perfect. I was terrified to go to this appt. I just can't get past the idea that I am pregnant, and the fear of something happening. I was almost making myself sick thinking about it, which I know has not been healthy. I can honestly say I feel better now that we heard a hb and that I am 12 wks this week. I am still feeling a crappy, headaches have been terrible. I have never gotten them this bad before. I feel that I can finally take a sigh of relief and get excited about being pregnant. We have started telling people now, it's kind of weird actually saying it out loud. It still doesn't feel real.

On a personal note we are officially on vacation and it is wonderful. I spent Saturday cleaning my house-I had a burst of energy to clean. I also baked some apple pies, my house smelled wonderful. Sunday and Monday we went to Chicago to visit some friends. We are now back home and heading to my in laws tomorrow. It is just a nice relaxing week. Today we are going to pick apples at a orchard and get some pumpkins. The temperature has finally dropped into the 50-60's here and it is finally starting to feel like fall. In the last few days the leaves have finally started to turn colors. I love it, although I am not looking forward to winter.

psychotic nerve

Yes, I know it's sciatic, but it's making me psychotic! I am having terrible problems with my sciatic nerve. It started about 3 weeks ago. I talked to my RE about it when it first started and he told me to sleep on the opposite site as the pain, that worked for a week. Then I asked my OB, and she told me that we all experience aches and pains when were pregnant and that we aren't going to worry about it unless I feel it in my toes?!?!?!?! What kind of answer is that. I talked to my neighbor last week, she is a physical therapist, and she gave me some stretches to do, and told me if it got worse to come and see her and she would work with me at home. Yesterday, I could barely walk. It is the sharpest pain down my left butt cheek. The pain goes down to about the middle of my thigh. It SUCKS! Nothing works, and it doesn't help that I can't get comfortable when I sleep and depending on how I lay it seems to make it worse. Today it seems to be a little better, I can get out of the bed and off the couch without acting like and old lady. I am hoping that this gets better soon, my fear is that is going to continue to get worse as I get bigger.

By the way, did I mention I am 10 weeks as of yesterday. I can't tell you how excited I am that this 1st trimester is almost over. I am ready to be able to talk about it, tell people I am expecting. And maybe tell more people about our experience with IF and that there is hope. I am feeling pretty good. I have been having some nauseous bouts again this week, but nothing that I can't handle. I still haven't experienced the exhaustion that I have heard the 1st trimester brings, but I don't know if that is because I have been sleeping anywhere from 8-10 hrs a night, which is totally not like me. I am a 6-7 hr a night kind of girl. I was tired in the sense that I just wanted to lay on the couch and do nothing when I got home for about 3 wks. But I never felt the need to sleep or take a little nap. I am still scared to death to go to the doctor in a week in a half. I am afraid of bad news, and I know there is still the risk of loss and that scares me to death. I hate going to the doctor ever 4-5 wks, I miss the weekly visits so much. Sometimes I miss not being "normal."

boring week

I wish I could report something exciting but not much has been going on this week. My husband has returned to normal. The flu bug only really lasted that day, in fact, by the time I got home from work that day he was better. I still was extremely paranoid all week, but still feel good. We have been catching up on house work and getting ready for fall-I know it sounds exciting. I have been working a lot. This week is also a busy week, so I have been laying low at home because I have been tired. I am having a hard time with not going to the doctor all the time. I feel like I need the reassurance that this is real. My OB did give me the option to come in at 10 weeks to see if we could hear the heart beat, but I figured what is another week or two. Especially if we didn't find it, then I would freak out even more. I am kind of wishing I would have scheduled it but guess I will have to wait. I go back for my next appointment two weeks from yesterday.

I am really excited, I only have a week in a half of work left and I am on vacation for a week and a half. Hubby and I are going to do nothing besides enjoy each other. We are going to go and see some family and friends. I think we are spending the first week in Chicago with some friends and then midweek we are heading to La Crosse to see DH's cousin who has been battling cancer. And then we are going to head up to his parents house for the rest of the weekend. It should be a great time, and very relaxing. What makes it more exciting is we are going to be announcing that we are expecting to our family and friends that week as long as our appointment goes well. YIPPEE!! I know our mothers and sisters have been dying to tell people!! I love their excitement!

no news is good news

This what I was told when I left the Dr's office last week. Unfortunately, they called. Definitely not something to freak out about, but concerning. I has some blood work and a urine analysis done last week. My blood work came back okay, but my urine showed that I am dehydrated and that my "sugar is spilling." More or less that I have glucose in my urine which is not supposed to be there. So instead of having a glucose test at 28 wks, I now get to have it at 20 wks, 24wks, and 28wks. AREN'T I LUCKY!!! The weirdest thing is once again it so out of character for my body type. I am 5 ft, 108 lbs, normally people of my body stature don't have these problems, but then again they don't have PCOS either, and I have that. As far as the dehydration, I need to get more liquids, if I can't, I need to go in for IV Fluid, and needless to say I need to stay healthy, if I get sick I need to go in right away. The best part of this is my husband is home with the puking flu today! I am a hypochondriac, I hate germs, especially ones that make me puke. So, needless to say I am freaking out. I went to Tar.get tonight and bought lots of germ killer. I came home from work sanitized my house, especially my bedroom. Washed my sheets in bleach, and now have barricaded myself in our bedroom. I have quarantined my husband to the spare bedroom, with instructions to strip the bed and bleach the sheets tomorrow. I feel terrible that I can't help him, but I think he is more worried about me getting sick than anything else. He is actually feeling better tonight. Thank god I had to work today, or I would have gone crazy. I am praying to god I don't get sick, I can't afford it. I don't want to end up in the hospital or even in the emergency room getting fluids. I have done that before and it sucks!! So I am working on the fluids. I need to drink as much water, juice, and broth-doesn't that sound good?!

First OB appt.

I had my first OB appt. today. It was pretty uneventful. I had a consult with the nurse for the first 1/2 hr, then met with my doctor. I had most of a physical, I did get to skip the pap because I had just had one in April. We went over some medical history, how she does things, office hrs, very basic info. She gave me a book and a folder filled with everything from what to do if you go into labor to blood cord preservation. So I have enough reading for until the next appointment. I also had some blood work and a urine specimen. All-in-all, pretty routine. I go back in 4 wk unless something comes back bad in my blood work. It is kind of weird seeing your RE every other day, to a OB who wants to see you once a month. It's even kind of scary. I did get a new due date. I have had 3 different dates given to me by 3 different people, all with the same information-how hard can it be to read the wheel. My new due date is April 15-a tax baby. This is the official date, the one my OB gave me, and she says "her date is the one that counts" So, the 15 th it will be.

Just a funny-I made the mistake of going grocery shopping today-HUNGRY. Now I have done this before when I wasn't pregnant and did some damage. But tonight was ridiculous!! My cart was overflowing. Seriously, I could not put anything else in it or it would have fallen out. It was kind of embarrassing. I felt like people we looking at me as if I was feeding a family of 10. Note to self-NO GROCERY SHOPPING HUNGRY FOR TH NEXT 7 MONTHS!!

graduation day

Today we graduated from our RE to our normal OB/GYN. YIKES! It is a bitter sweet day. I am so excited that we are to the point of being normal again, but sad because I love my RE's and their staff. I am so fortunate to have had the experience I did with my doctors. I have read so many blogs where patients were treated as numbers and statistics, not people with real fears and dreams. I was treated as I was part of a family. So not seeing them weekly is kind of sad for me. They are why we are in the position we are today!!

Our appt went well, baby is growing. The heart beat was 157 bpm today.

Not much more to update. I am feeling a lot better, haven't had any nausea lately, which has been nice. I have figured out if I eat smaller meals more times a day I don't seem to get sick. I am still tired, and I don't think that will be going away anytime soon. I am now getting ready to head to work. I am working a late shift tonight, which should be interesting since I am sleeping by 10pm EVERY night. Thank god I have off tomorrow. I will keep you all posted on the days to come.