rollercoaster

Our lives seem to be an everlasting roller coaster!! Yesterday I spoke with my IVF coordinator (no I am not having IVF, but that is her title.) She is the one that organizes everything I am doing as far as treatment. Apparently, Justin and I qualify for some program that may be able to get us drugs for 1 month for free. That is $1500 worth of drugs for nothing!! So I had to fill some paperwork out, make some phone calls, and once again wait. They are wanting me to start this cycle already since my body is already in that zone-but we will see. It takes 48 hrs for the background check to go through-mainly they are double checking to make sure our insurance won't cover any of it. Then there is a application process, so like I said we will see.

I really don't know how to feel about this all. We don't really know if this is a now or never on the free samples or if we can wait until August. I had kind of taken a sign of relief from all the stress and now I am back to being anxious. So who knows what will happen next. All I know is that I can't wait to go on vacation! No matter where we are in this whole situation it will be a nice break to be in the "happiest place on earth"