Wednesday, June 4, 2008

1 wk down

The title says it all. So far I really don't feel any different than any other cycle. I don't know if that is good or bad. I am still a little crampy, although I do feel a lot better, but I am assuming that is from OHSS. I haven't been sleeping well, so I have been tired during the day. I have been waking up numerous times in the middle of the night for no reason, and just can't get comfortable to fall back asleep. And then, I just get frustrated that I can't sleep, which I think in return keeps me awake longer.

There is a part of me that is anxious and afraid of next week. I am sick of the disappointment, but yet somewhat have that expectation. I want so badly to be a mom, and to be pregnant, but I don't know anything else other than a negative pee stick. And on the other hand it's just another week. I feel like I have avoided thinking about it and blogging so may be I won't think about it. In some ways it has worked and in others it hasn't. I feel somewhat numb, it's weird. In other months I have obsessed about it at this point. I know it really isn't worth the stress to be that consumed, but it is so hard not to be.


SAHW said...

It's such a roller-coaster, a back and forth, isn't it? The delicate balance between hope and not letting yourself hope too much...

I don't know the answer. I guess we all face it every month...should I let myself have the hope or should I not?

It sounds like things have been going well for you this time though, so I really do hope it works out this time. :)

Baby Quest said...

Hang in there! I have been lurking around your site and just finished my
2WW. I totally understand what u are going thru but it sounds like you're chances r good. keep busy and stay positive!