Monday, June 23, 2008

just when it's started it's over

what a crappy ending to a good weekend. Needless to say I miscarried last night. There isn't much to say. I am still cramping really bad as well as bleeding. I am angry, sad, and every other emotion you could have. I am not blaming myself, I understand this all happens for a reason, but it doesn't make it suck any less.

I wasn't feeling well last night when I left my cousins gift opening. As I drove home, I started to cramp really bad, to the point I felt like I could pass out. When I came home, I went to the bathroom and saw blood. I called the 24 hr nurse line and they told me to go straight to the hospital emergency room. To make matters worse, my husband left for Atlanta last night, so I had to go alone. When I got there it was like entering a horror movie. It was packed, when I checked in they told me the wait was around 3 hrs-great so I can sit there in my bloody pants listening to babies cry around me-can't wait!! After sitting there in agony for 3 hrs I finally got back to see someone. I had blood tests and a u/s. There was nothing found on the u/s and my beta had dropped to 28. So it's over! I got a hold of my DH and had to tell him the bad news on his boys trip, which sucked! My mom came down to spend a few days with me so I am not alone. Anyway, I am sure I will write more later. I have a call out to my doctor, I have no idea where I go from here.

6 comments:

SAHW said...

I'm so sorry Mandy...I can't believe this is happening to you. Since your mom is with you, please take it easy on yourself and try to recover. I'm really sorry for your loss. :(

Mom said...

Mandy,
what a nightmare, I can't believe what an emotional roller coaster you continue to be on. just know we are always thinking about you and love and support all that you do. Hope you're cramps get better soon and your doctor can get you focused and on the next event. Love mom

The Boeckmann's said...

My thoughts and prayers are with you. Let me know if there is anything I can do. Love you lots and lots

Busted said...

I'm so sorry for your loss.

Michell said...

I'm so sorry.

K @ ourboxofrain said...

I am so incredibly sorry for your loss.