just when it's started it's over

what a crappy ending to a good weekend. Needless to say I miscarried last night. There isn't much to say. I am still cramping really bad as well as bleeding. I am angry, sad, and every other emotion you could have. I am not blaming myself, I understand this all happens for a reason, but it doesn't make it suck any less.

I wasn't feeling well last night when I left my cousins gift opening. As I drove home, I started to cramp really bad, to the point I felt like I could pass out. When I came home, I went to the bathroom and saw blood. I called the 24 hr nurse line and they told me to go straight to the hospital emergency room. To make matters worse, my husband left for Atlanta last night, so I had to go alone. When I got there it was like entering a horror movie. It was packed, when I checked in they told me the wait was around 3 hrs-great so I can sit there in my bloody pants listening to babies cry around me-can't wait!! After sitting there in agony for 3 hrs I finally got back to see someone. I had blood tests and a u/s. There was nothing found on the u/s and my beta had dropped to 28. So it's over! I got a hold of my DH and had to tell him the bad news on his boys trip, which sucked! My mom came down to spend a few days with me so I am not alone. Anyway, I am sure I will write more later. I have a call out to my doctor, I have no idea where I go from here.